reality

My hope is this makes it better for you
My hope is this makes it easier for you
My hope is that by limiting your contact with the world your world can become a safer place
My hope is you will sleep better, you will feel better and the panic that shuts you down will subside

My hope is this will get better for me
My hope is it will get easier for me
My hope is this gaping hole you left will mend and fill and the scar tissue will make it stronger
My hope is that reality sets in soon so I can learn to not hope so much

And somewhere I hope you will miss me too